This morning as I was working on the split rail fence that negative little voice in my head came back, and it said, ‘you’re never going to get this painting done’. I shushed it and kept working. Then it said, ‘there’s so much detail you are never going to get this done. You’ve been working on it FOREVER!’.
So I took a bit of a break and made another cup of tea. I turned around and looked at the painting from a distance and realized that I’d just been way too close to it for too long. It looks pretty darn good!
I started working on it again and forced myself to just concentrate on the little bit in front of me. When my eyes wanted to wander to the area I hadn’t done yet I just forced myself focus in on the area I was working on. The voice tried it again and I refused to even acknowledge it was there. I felt a little like the kid who puts his hands over his ears and shouts la la la la la la so he can’t hear anything!
I know I’m my own worst critic and although sometimes that makes me strive to be better, sometimes it’s just a royal pain in the butt. I want to enjoy painting and not worry so much about when it’s going to completed or whether it’s going to be good enough.
Perhaps at the end of my 365 days of drawing or painting I’ll be closer to doing that!
Here’s a close up of the flowers I’ve been working on. The lighter area in the middle is the section that I haven’t done a second layer of painting on yet.